seriously if i could just say out those words then i guess it wouldnt hurt that much anymore and dont give me any attention to make myself feel that way 
i could just sometimes feel myself bursting whenever thinking about it and it just deliberately hurts me all the way...
so kind of like today was Np games day and was kind of fun but then the stupid soccer ball spoils the mood of everything just hope that it would come around.... thinking of what to do for pop though what to give hmmm........ thinking thinking..... haha and somehow i should be thinking about teachers day but what to give red pens??? lol didnt make any sense how many thousand and one pens do they alr have?? haha its time to change the trend lol(: of not giving maybe lol do not have the mood this time round so didnt feel really excited about anything.... okay i guess i noe what to do... will buy materials tomoroow(: hmmm....
 

i just wish that i am still small and little where we are innocent and from there we learn what is life and love about again....