sometimes i really really wish how i wish it was only us just us and no one else. but its kind of selfish isnt it?. sometimes i think that it was only me. me only. that wasnt satisfied about her. and sometimes. i just think that i dont really understand what i really want sometimes. and sometimes i just want people to say what they really think. but afraid of the truth and sometimes. i just feel that i cant face reality. and sometimes. my positive mindset just seem to be running away from me and at times they never seem to come back. sometimes i really want to be a knowing nothing girl again, but then things just come running to you unknowingly and sometimes you just cant simply act like yourself because people might not like the way you are. sometimes, i just feel like staying at home and know nothing about the outside. sometimes, i just wish that i stand as an individual with no responsibilities and nothing to care about. no one commenting, no one bitching, no chance of getting me into anywhere.

how i wish my mindset could change. turn it around. making me see things at a better point of view, making me see the better side of someone. so that i could just forgive and maybe soon later forget. how i wish i could change the way i am to accept people's fault and still be happy around them. how i wish i am more aware of my surroundings.

nothing seem to make sense at all. even me.