I NEED A NERD SOUL TO ENTER ME!

OMG Someone just push me just so hard that I can really study! Cause right now I really dont know where to begin someone just force me to obey that timetable so tightly that I have to do revision every single day! Cause its really important! I am so in need to study now! I feel that vibes in me I feel me hair ends standing up. I feel my heart racing a thousand time faster in fear of this coming SA1. Its like so important to me compared to other SA1 that I have in my other levels. Is like this is the most crucial most important that anything can be. Is just that? I am too lost as to where should I begin! There's so many chapters to every single humans topic and science and maths as well. It doesnt make a difference if I only succeed in Amaths. You know sometimes I just wish so much that I am in Primary 6 still and my mum will push me to study every single day. And nagg and scold me to study.

Okay I admit I hate naggings but afterall, I studied. If I dont start studying now what kind of marks am I going to get! I'm so fucking worried! Is like I'm going to have a real breakdown if I don't do well for this term exam, but at the same time, I dont know where to start from. Yknow that sort of situation. Whereby you just feel so lost. like a junctions where there's 7 ways and decide which to start the journey with!!!

Someone just guide me control me hold me so tight that I cant give myself some time to spare. When I am feeling so tired just push me! And let me not waste my time and think about those unnecessary things and care about those that do not deserve to be concerned about. Let me this once and done with. And quit my habit of grumbling when I just suffered a little.Things that I am doing now is never too hard to do, I got to keep going. And do once and get over it quickly. Let this be a quick pain, and it will soon be over. Never leet my brain tell me say that I cannot do it. Let my passion be studying. Let studying be my food my water my life just for this year.

I HAVE TO BE A NERD JUST THIS ONCE!