Sudden rush of emotions.

School was like a huge breath to take in. Everyone. Or maybe not everybody seem to be studying hard already. Oh god. Since when was my blog talking about studying and studying and studying like non stop?
maybe I wanna study that hard too. Maybe afterall I want to be in a good school and have a good and bright future. Or maybe I dont want a average lifestyle anymore. And I dont want a average o's cert too or even worse lower than average. Feel like just thrashing all my responsibilities aside other than studying and not care about anyone else. But I doubt that I can do that even. Maybe the fact about looking at everyone equally and wishing EVERYONE will doesnt exist anymore. For me atleast. Cause to others, they say that it cannot be true.

My internet sped is hell on me right now. And i cannot type properly nowadays for nuts so thats why I havent been blogging. and to my horror yesterday. Its 3 more months to the real o's or maybe its 4. crap!. I am totally not the studying sort right now.