There is definitely a gap between. That has always been there. Actually we have little commons. Those that are common were being made up sometimes while others, little of them actually do exist. Hope this won't be the thing that separate us apart. Since its the last year, I hope everything will go nicely without any parts and parcels everywhere. I wish to graduate this school feeling whole.

This few weeks have been driving me crazy like a mad cow. All I could think of is just work work and more work. There is nothing else in my mind. I refuse to say 'return me my life' all that because I know that I will procrastinate even more. So, I rather let days past with me working hard and pretending that I am not suffering here at all. I know what I want and I am going to go for it. And I hope that it comes to me too. Ever since the time that I start to set goals and all. I start to want so much more. I want everything because I know that those that I once wish for will not be enough. I found that gap between dreams and reality. And I want to step out of dreaming and start facing things that has been already right infront of me. Although it may seem a little too late. But I am going to cont to try my best. And of course, I hope that I will not be neglecting my friends too much. I hope that I wouldnt be too preoccupied.

Everything has been so dense and tensed. I dont like how everyday I have to prepare for test and homeworks and everything its been driving me crazy. I hope that qn why do we have to study for wouldn't pop by be head again. Cause that will definitely make me procrastinate. I have to study I have to study to bring me further because this is a global fact. I dont come from a very wealthy background so I will have to rely on myself. I have to rely on my abilities to make my future a better one. There's no one else to rely on. This is such a depressing fact.

I have to tell myself that everything could be studied because if I believe that there's not a need to study, I will start to deprove. everyone doen't come with a talent. At least not a talent in every single subjects.